The intention of this website/blog is not to provide wisdom and certainly not to provide any answers. In fact, most of the thoughts I have
chronicled here stir up more questions. I do not intend to stir up heady debate about what the truth is or how people should run their
lives. My intent is to share my journal as I try to document my struggle to see outside of my box formed by my experiences (both good
and bad), my culture, and my religion. The latter I try to avoid. I do not consider myself a part of any particular denomination. It is OK if
you do, of course. My struggle is to form community not based on a common belief but on a common goal - to be as open as I can and to
provide others the safety to do the same. As a result, I hope not just to keep from drowning in my issues but to more clearly understand
my Maker, myself, and those around me. To be fully cured of my issues is hopeless and I am OK with that. I am not trying to create a
self-obsessive study to ever improve myself. Of course, to fight a debilitating issue is honourable, and, in some cases, necessary. For me,
my main issue is that I do not care enough. Focusing on any of the other issues is mostly working on the symptoms. I do not want to
sound as though I am trying to simplify life's struggles into some list of rules that will somehow cure all of my pain (received or given). In
fact, the questions I raise here leave me more confused and less confident. I am OK with that too. My goal is to find, through love, the
strength to be vulnerable. There are plenty of people who stand up in front of crowds promising that those who follow them will find
power over life's struggles as they themselves have. Many of them do have some good points and some of them I read after. However, I
am here only promising that I will struggle even though I will often fail, but that I will struggle openly so that those around me can do the
same. Is this not enough of a solution?
These thoughts are what I have written down as I share my struggles with others and my Maker. I have tried to be as clear about what I feel I have heard as I can. This does not make these words divine or 'truth'. They are colored (for the good and bad) by my present perspective. I do not apologize for that. This is the beauty of community where we can see things from so many diferent perspectives. I am not striving to rid myself of my perspective or trying to substitute it for some true perspective. I just want to share my beautiful struggle. I hope that it will encourage you in your struggle. I have tried to write only the thoughts that seemed the most universal. If you do not relate to some or all of my thoughts, that is OK, of course. If you are not struggling to see beyond, I hope the pondering in this site will inspire you to do so.
A few words about the site layout. The thought on the front page will be updated from time to time. Not necessarily on a daily basis, but when I get something else to write. The Recent Thoughts and Topics Page lists the past thoughts in chronological order starting with the most recent. I leave the most recent thoughts at the top because sometimes the thoughts follow a theme. Please use the blog to share how the words have affected you. Feel free to share honestly and openly (positive or negative), but please, no sermonizing. Let's have fun together.
I have recently added a 'Thoughts' page which follows more of a book format. This allows an overview of the path to openess, discussed throughout the site, by topic rather than the individual thoughts provided on other pages of the site. This page is the result of prayers in an attempt to get my head around what has been said up to this point. To define the journey in a quick summary. For this reason, forgive me if it comes across too clinical.
Checkout all of the wonderful backgrounds used on this site by clicking on the links at the bottom of this page. My use of their art by no means indicates their endorsement.
These thoughts are what I have written down as I share my struggles with others and my Maker. I have tried to be as clear about what I feel I have heard as I can. This does not make these words divine or 'truth'. They are colored (for the good and bad) by my present perspective. I do not apologize for that. This is the beauty of community where we can see things from so many diferent perspectives. I am not striving to rid myself of my perspective or trying to substitute it for some true perspective. I just want to share my beautiful struggle. I hope that it will encourage you in your struggle. I have tried to write only the thoughts that seemed the most universal. If you do not relate to some or all of my thoughts, that is OK, of course. If you are not struggling to see beyond, I hope the pondering in this site will inspire you to do so.
A few words about the site layout. The thought on the front page will be updated from time to time. Not necessarily on a daily basis, but when I get something else to write. The Recent Thoughts and Topics Page lists the past thoughts in chronological order starting with the most recent. I leave the most recent thoughts at the top because sometimes the thoughts follow a theme. Please use the blog to share how the words have affected you. Feel free to share honestly and openly (positive or negative), but please, no sermonizing. Let's have fun together.
I have recently added a 'Thoughts' page which follows more of a book format. This allows an overview of the path to openess, discussed throughout the site, by topic rather than the individual thoughts provided on other pages of the site. This page is the result of prayers in an attempt to get my head around what has been said up to this point. To define the journey in a quick summary. For this reason, forgive me if it comes across too clinical.
Checkout all of the wonderful backgrounds used on this site by clicking on the links at the bottom of this page. My use of their art by no means indicates their endorsement.